April 2010
2 posts
“Fashion is a form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to alter it every six...”
– Oscar Wilde
Since last post…
So much has changed, I think I have grown up so much in a few months that I don’t even believe that I could explain any of it.
Everything is amazing.
I’ll be back soon .
January 2010
4 posts
“Its only after we have lost everything that we are free to do anything”
– Chuck Palahniuk
“To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is...”
Well this is more than much needed. I haven’t really been away since…ehhh, August. I know, I know — I take more vacation than a normal human, but it is much needed because I work myself retarded. Other than the amazing one day trip back in October to New York, which was amazing…just needed to say that again, I have been at work & school pretty much every day. My stress...
December 2009
2 posts
went out last night,
and i thought of you,
when i was ruining my liver.
it is those things you do,
that keep me coming back.
woke up in the morning,
my eyes scrunched to the light.
is it the thought of you?
or the pains in my head,
that won’t let my legs stop quivering,
or that is making my stomach so weak.
I have a problem I can’t kick,
is it you or the liquor ,
that...
the sky is falling & i’m still breathing
life is over & i’m still swimming
my ears are closed but i’m still seeing
THE BUNNY RABBITS ARE COMING! don’t get trampled. OHmygosh-
i’m bleeding blood…what do i do?!
that butterfly just fell out of the sky
it is all falling and you’re still standing!
i hurt…
i’m alive!
it is never...
October 2009
2 posts
drive to see you
radio on high
night time
arms out the window
holding hands with the summer air
singing at the top of my lungs
has to be the best feeling in the world.
I can feel it -
the feeling is so good
that it is good to think about
it is so unforgettable
best feeling in the world.
laying in your arms
drinking beers
watching the stars til the sun comes up
no where in the world...
September 2009
2 posts
“Maybe it takes something that you used to want in your past to point out the...”
– Unknown
No more bad JuJu - Good vibes all around - I’m on a pursuit for happiness.
August 2009
9 posts
“I really believe, or want to believe, really I am nuts, otherwise I’ll...”
– Allen Ginsberg
I keep sending positive vibes into the atmosphere - praying for the best. Hoping that if I think something hard enough in a positive way then only positive things can happen…? I wonder how helpful this really is. I have been double thinking everything that I do and doing the right thing, praying that karma is going to kick in, so that the things I want can actually happen and not back...
“I like too many things and get all confused and hung-up running from one falling...”
– Jack Kerouac
I’m not ready, I’m not ready. I have too much on my mind - I have been working my self to be over anxious lately and I need to calm down because I start to feel like I’m going to just pass out. Stress doesn’t look good on me. I have to pack, I have to work, I have to go get lunch with parents, I have to get sushi with friends - and then I leave, this is going to be a...
July 2009
23 posts
So - As busy as I have been, I have done a lot of it alone; crazy I know…I always have someone with me. I have had a lot of time to think, and leaving me to think to myself never usually turns out well, aside from the massive burnt toast smell, I usually leave myself in mass confusion. So - I love David, absolutely, one-hundred percent, no one othe than my parents have ever received such...
I am starting to get excited. I am going to be so busy for the next 2 weeks, then school(boohoo)
Thursday(today) : Clean, Laundry, Errands, Work, Girls night at Ambers. :D
Friday : Jeff and I are going to Pittsburgh to see GIRL TALK (the one and only<3)
Saturday: Probably get home from Pittsburgh around 7am, Nap, Pack some more, work and then maybe go to DC.
Sunday: Lunch with...
I think I lost my mojo - maybe it is my charm or my good looks - but I don’t think I have it any more. It is weird - a bit stressful.
I can get through this - as hard as it may seem, but in the end of this everything will be okay. I know it.
“Establishing goals is all right if you don’t let them deprive you of interesting...”
– Doug Larson (via hrrrthrrr)
“You can’t keep blaming yourself. Just blame yourself once, and move on.”
– Dan Castellaneta
I started writing this a few times and with out getting into far too much detail for my “internet blog” but sadly I have kicked everyone close to me to the curb for the person who makes me cry. I feel so lonely, it is crazy, this has to be over soon, I feel held down, stuck, unhappy, lonely, and like I’m not going to advance in life. I need someone to come and save me.
“Look at me oh look at me is this the way...
I feel like something is missing-I need another half. I am very unhappy and it is unhealthy. I don’t understand my heart at all, most of all I don’t understand why people do this to my heart, not even heart-more like my brain and my eyes, cus’ they always start to water. I’ve done so much and nothing gets better, I don’t know why I think it will, I’m...
I’m jammin’ out today at work-trying...
“Sometimes I’m confused by what I think is really obvious. But what I think...”
– Michael Stipe
I always find myself updating early, early in the morning, like right now, its 5:54 AM, I had a bad dream and now I’m awake early for work. I have felt like a better person lately, but I have felt like I am unwanted and don’t have anyone to be around. I’ve been extra lonely-and it is weird because I used to feel like I had a million people to talk to and now I don’t even...
June 2009
15 posts
I am falling in love with the Phoenix, it takes me...
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“We all die. The goal isn’t to live forever, the goal is to create...”
– Chuck Palakniuk
I’ve tried not to sit still too long this summer, I’ve realized that I am growing up and the next five years are probably some of the last five I’ll have to enjoy to myself without a million other things to worry about. I guess this is growing up…BUT I did think that it would be over at 21 and that is when one should start being serious, but as long as I am getting...